The Rants Of One...

When I drink

Jack — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 04:54:10 +0000

Haaaaa not really. Cough. No. It is just the song I am listening to by The Avett Brothers – Ned was listening today during lunch. Depressing! Balargripitious! Today was my last day at D-ahhhh my crazy all girl school. I really don’t mind at all… I mean I will miss my friends… but honestly I was only emotional with Ned. Ugh I was happy we said good bye before I started reaching the crying feeling. Like when we were saying good bye my voice starting cracking and my nose and eyes felt weird. It’s not like I wouldn’t cry in front of him… I’ve done that before last year. Eh. It was… I don’t even know. I felt like it would have been stupid to do that… and although I thought about it for like… a second – I was not going to ask for a hug. It is always after I walk out though, that I finally figure out what I should have said. Well. A part of what I figured I should have said he has in binary code… heheh.

Anyway… I don’t have any plans this weekend… which is strange. I mean I guess on Sunday I will go to Mass. Other than that there isn’t anything set in stone. I can finish cleaning my room. I have to vacuum again because the Ned (cat) keeps entering my room and leaving his fur all over the place. I can get back into Swedish… maybe I will read those encyclopedias I made my dad buy two years ago… I think I want to walk to the village tomorrow. According to google maps it would take me about an hour to walk there. Well to Starbucks – I really want their hot chocolate again. I don’t know. I have a three day weekend.

Wishful thinking.

Jack — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 02:22:33 +0000

I wish I could capture the sound and feeling in an image.

How

Jack — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 03:49:42 +0000

How peculiar he makes me feel. How wonderfully peculiar.

Waiting Room.

Jack — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 05:59:48 +0000

The cat is knocking at my door. Mr. Gorbachev tear down this wall. One moment. Okay. Now his purring is overtaking my music. Sweetest cat on erf. Yes. Erf.

What has been going on… wait let me check what I have last posted. Ahah okay. So homecoming was good. (My cat was laying on my back and it felt good… then he moved… meh…).

Today (since it is Saturday) I am going to be working at my mom’s office… going to the store maybe, being picked up at 5 to go carve pumpkins and watch movies with Jennaaaay. ZOMG cat licked my ankle. Cold.

I don’t know. Blahhhhh. Yay kitty on my back! Sunday – mass at 8, coffee with Finn afterwards :), and then confirmation class. Then a week’s worth of homework.. haha Woo. Ouch claws.

My mom is spending the night. I think it’s weird that my parents are sleeping together. I mean the dogs have always slept between them… but it’s weird knowing that there are four people in this unit… I cleaned my room today and vaccumed like crazy. I am going to have Ned’s hair everywhere. Yeah he is the top fluffy one. That is my brother’s bed by the way. Mine is usually made… or at least my bed sheet is properly placed on my bed.

I feel like an emotional blender. I remember in some other post I mention blenders… but I can’t remember. Anyway Jerk is going to be asking out this girl once she gets back (it is like fall break or something). I don’t know… what exactly I feel. I am glad he will stop asking me ways to ask her out. I just… ugh. I don’t know. I really don’t. I guess she is pretty-ish. Her eyes are weird (like far apart) and her mouth bothers me. I think her roommate is prettier.

Finn shaved his head. Ahahaha oh dear. I kind of don’t want to think about how that will look. Short hair is okay… depending on how short it is. Buzzed and bald… can not handle. No. Just no. Eh. We shall see. We as in this and I.

Well. I am going to go work on my letter to Chomper. That will be platonic male friend’s official name (or your name if you actually have continued to look at this).

Only bad thing about this blog thing is I can’t write everything everything. Like. How much I hate so and so because I know so and so reads it. Or could stumble upon it. I mean some people I don’t care. But true feelings for some shall have to go in the Red Book. Ned is being a pest. I think he just ate a spider. Good boy.

3 bowls

Jack — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 02:50:53 +0000

It is super cold. The bathroom is warmer than my room (it has a radiator). I am wearing a scarf and gloves.

Ha. Jerk just sent me a pic. He looks old. I had three bowls of raisin bran. I had a bagel for breakfast. Then I had crazy bread and ice cream with… I forgot the code name. Dental. I know you are wondering how I got to that. Well I was thinking of the show Dexter, but then I was like no… and then Dennis, and then I was like. No. So then dental. No. That doesn’t work. I don’t know.

My head hurts. I don’t know where my glasses are. I have Party in the USA stuck in my head. It brings flashbacks that are both good and well – both are good, just one is more visually scary. Not really. Whatever. Blegarshuojsdfks.

hingyerrrrrr.

I don’t want to go back to the hospital. I also don’t want to go back to school. Meh.

NODDIN’ MY HEAD LIKE YEAH, MOVIN’ MY HIPS LIKE YEAH

Oh my god.kfjshdfkzhs

Something fancy

Jack — Thu, 08 Oct 2009 00:05:22 +0000

I am sorry. I just had told my friend Clare about having to pee in a cup yesterday. Ha. All I will say is therapy until… monday as far as I know. I’ll be glad when this is over. Although lunch is pretty tasty.

I should really clean my room.

I wish it were Saturday already. *Insert Erinn-esque squeal*

There really is not much to say. I don’t really want to talk about the hospital for privacy reasons and because… well. All I will say about that topic is, I have had a panic attack today and yesterday. I have only been there for two days. Also I hate that stupid wall with the ugly beach scene on it. The only things that look are the palm trees. Oh and I hate the quiet room.

Pretty sweet.

Jack — Mon, 05 Oct 2009 03:03:07 +0000

Well. Life is good right now. I have friends, male and female. I am getting closer to my classmates. I went on retreat this weekend. Friday from 6 until sunday at 3ish.

Though there was an original heaven on a cracker boy named Narlens (changed but thats what I will call him haha), I soon was side tracked by a guy in my group named… Finnigan.

This boy… has the lovelies hair I have seen in a long time. And most of saturday night he laid his head on my lap and let me play with his hair. I wasn’t even scared or nervous to say that “You have really pretty eyes”, or tell him that I thought he had a wonderful smile regardless of his braces. Like his smile made me warm. I loved when I would play with his hair and he would look up at me and smile. It was like… ugh. Swoon.

Anyway he gave me his number. I told him I would see him at Homecoming on saturday so maybe Ill snag a dance from him. If Owl doesn’t mind. Actually I don’t care what he thinks because he rarely talks to me haha. Idk.

Finnigan sucked on my finger. It was weird. OH he is the cutest dancer. And he has a strange like… accent. When he says matter it turns out like “maattah” or something… adorable.

comfort food, try comfort sound

Jack — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 04:09:12 +0000

So right now I am talking to Jake on Skype. I like it because I don’t have to hold a phone, and I can hear him type and all his music that he plays. Earlier he was singing and I was just laying. It’s kind of like he is just here. Which is nice. I don’t really feel pain when I talk to him anymore, I mean I miss him. But I have been decently distracted with other people.

When guys sing, even if they sing the same song as another… it doesn’t make you feel the same. When Jake sings, it is like a lullaby. When wtf was his name… Owl? Yes. When he sings it is like… weird.

I am hungry. I need sleep. Ugh.

To Know

Jack — Thu, 24 Sep 2009 03:42:43 +0000

Right now, I have no idea which way things are heading… headed. Whatever. Anyway today has been… first off I had this crazy dream. Then my day became weird, because in the one part of my dream that Ned was in, he was wearing an orange shirt. Today as he walked past my spanish class, I literally freaked. He was wearing orange.

My mom made me cookies this morning :) Chocolate chip.

So as far as homecoming this weekend… OH WAIT! I HAVE MY DRESS AND SHOES!

Yes!!!!! And I had all these sweet deals. My dress is like a blue… and my shoes are silver. I hope I don’t fall in them…. but every homecoming the “date” is 6 foot 1. Why? I don’t know. Ha. Anywho back to homecoming.

Friday – FOOTBALL!

Saturday – Prep, Dinner at some kids house in Tosa at 6, Dance at 730 until 11, then partyyyy somewhere in Mequon. I don’t know when I have to be home… I haven’t told my dad that part of the plan per se… Oh well.

Sunday – 1030 until like 1 or 2 something with Church/Confirmation shenanigans, and then homework. Sleep. Love it.

Oh, so the title. Today in Theology we were going over I think… Chapter four in Genesis… whenever Caine and Able show up. Basically after Caine kills his brother and yatta yatta, he goes to some city, “knows his wife” and conceives a son. So Sister Linda was like, does anyone know what to know someone is? And a girl said “Make a baby”, and Sister Linda says “What is that called?” Oh man. The girl says really quietly, “Sex?” and then Linda screams “SEX, THEY HAD SEX! Don’t be afraid to say it!”

So I told Slurpy (haha I am laughing at you Slurp :P) and she tells me to not know Owl. Hahah awkward. Well I don’t plan on knowing that boy. Ever. So. Good. :D Off to read Conrad.

Sound Effect

Jack — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 01:24:18 +0000

Hi John. Please stop sending people my blog from facebook. I would surely appreciate that. Thank you.

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Today we went to go see Shakespeare… it was pretty amusing. Yesterday I found out the Marquette cross country team runs past my house for practice. Heh.

All I need to do right now is some math homework and some spanish… oh and bio. Other things I need to do include; cleaning my room (it is pretty horrific), track down the missing half of my clothes, buy homecoming dress, new shoes, ect.,

Homecoming? Yes. Not even mine. Mine is in October. I was asked on Monday to go to the Marquette. Oddly enough I obliged. The guy… I can’t really remember what he looks like. I’ve only seen him like… three weeks ago. He has three cats though? He is conservative? Uh… what else… OH, we are going to see who dances worse.

I got a new cell phoneeeeeeeee. Super duper (oh jeez) I am so happy though. It is orange. I like orange. Not so much oranges. I do like orange juice though.

Lake! That will be code name for my platonic male friend. He is quite the character. Suggesting that I have the chance to hook up with… Owl? Yes he can be owl. Owl is the homecoming date. Weirdddd. I highly doubt that will happen. Not really my type. Plus… regardless that he asked me, I don’t think he likes me… Eh. Oh well. I get a t shirt.

Ned! Not the cat, oh he is my buddy. I am happy I am not in his class. I couldn’t handle it last year… it was weird… How? Because I couldn’t raise my hand because I didn’t know how to talk to him as a student. Now I am not his student, I mean… I am a student, but not his , so now I can just make fun of his shoes, ask about his cat, and have other strange conversations :3.

So today is thursday, and my plans… are a little strange for once…

Friday – Maybe I will go see Owl and Lake at their cross country meet, maybe I will go to the football game, maybe I will go to Jerney’s, watch videos and play with the kittens! (Awwww kittens).

Saturday – Most likely homework/cleaning. Maybe going to the mall. Then around 5 babysitting for Carrie! Sweet.

Sunday – Mass and then chill. Or maybe mall with Florinetine (wtf).

Skip a week.

Friday – Homecoming game with Owl?

Saturday – Prep, and then homecoming with Owl, then after party maybe? [I wonder if anyone else will be in his car with us...]

Sunday – If I don’t when I get home, shower, then mass and then confirmation meeting! Yay??

The end.